தீபிகா .... பகுதி - 3

 அம்மா அறைக்குள் வந்தபோது நான் என் அறையில் அமர்ந்திருந்தேன். நான் என் அம்மாவைப் பார்த்து "ஏன் அம்மா..என்னை பரதநாட்டியமும் கற்று கொள்ள சொல்கிறீர்கள் , அது  பெண் நடனமும் தானே ,நான்  ஏன் கற்க வேண்டும் என்று கேட்டேன். அதற்கு அம்மா என்னிடம் அது  பெண்களுக்கு மட்டுமல்ல, ஆர்வம் உள்ளவர்கள் யார் வேண்டுமானாலும் கற்கலாம்" என்று சிரித்துக் கொண்டே சொன்னார் . சிலருக்கு அதுதான் வருங்காலம் , மற்றவங்களை  விட்டுவிடு உங்கள் அப்பா பரதநாட்டியம் கற்க விரும்பினார் ஆனால் உன் தாத்தா  சம்மதிக்கவில்லை அதனால் தான் ராணுவத்தில் சேர்ந்தார், ஆனால் அவருக்கு  தெரியாமல் அவர் கற்றார் ஆனால்  திருமணத்திற்கு பிறகும் அவரால் தொடர முடியவில்லை .

தீபக் உனக்கு ஏற்கனவே நடனமாடத் தெரியும், நீயும் கற்றுக்கொண்டாய் அதனால்தான் நான் பரதநாட்டியத்தைத் தேர்ந்தெடுத்தேன், மறுபடியும் அம்மா என்னிடம் சொல்லுடா , 'நீ அதையே திரும்பத் திரும்பக் கற்றுக்கொள்ள விரும்புகிறாயா?' என்று சொல்லிவிட்டு, அம்மா 

 என்னிடம் முடிவு செய்துகொள்  என்று சொல்லிவிட்டு வெளியேறினாள். நான் அதைப் பற்றி யோசித்துக் கொண்டிருந்தேன் 'எப்படியும் இன்னும் கொஞ்ச நாள் தான் கற்று கொள்ள நினைத்தேன், அம்மாவின் ஆசையையும் பூர்த்தி செய்வேன்

அடுத்த நாள் காலை நான் அம்மாவிடம் சரி சொன்னேன், பரதநாட்டியம்  தெரியாததால் என்னால் போக முடியாது என்று சொன்னேன். அம்மா அதை பற்றி கவலைப்பட வேண்டாம் நான் ஏற்கனவே ஏற்பாடு செய்கிறேன் என்றார். அம்மா  போனில் யாரிடமோ  பேசினாள், ஒரு நாளில், என் அம்மா அருகிலுள்ள பள்ளி இடத்தில் ஒரு பாரம்பரிய நடன ஆசிரியரை ஏற்பாடு செய்தார். ஆசிரியர் என் அம்மாவின் கூட வேலை செய்யும் ஒருத்தரின் தோழி . அம்மா என்னிடம் சொன்னார் , "உன் அப்பா மிகவும் திறமையானவர், நீயும்  அப்படித்தான் என்று  நினைக்கிறேன் " என்றார் . பிறகு என்னை பார்த்து  அமைதியாகவும் கூச்சமாகவும் இருக்க வேண்டாம், தைரியமாகவும் நம்பிக்கையுடனும் இரு என்றார் ,பிறகு என்னிடம்  நான் என் பழைய  மகனை பார்க்க விரும்புகிறேன் என்றார். அம்மா என்னை பரதநாட்டியம் அகாடமியில் சேர்க்க வேண்டும். என் தந்தையே அந்த பாரம்பரியத்தில் நடனமாடி, அதைத் தொடர ஊக்குவித்தார், நாங்கள் குரு அறைக்குள் சென்று, அம்மா பாரம்பரிய தட்டில் குரு தட்சணை  கொடுத்தோம் , என் அம்மாவின் வேண்டுகோளைக் கேட்டு அவர்கள் சிரித்தார் . அவர் என்னை அன்புடன் அழைத்து என் பெயரைக் கேட்டார் , என் பெயர் தீபக் என்று அவரிடம்  சொன்னேன்.

அடுத்த நாள் வகுப்பிற்குச் சென்றேன். அம்மா சொன்னது போல் மாலை 5 மணிக்கே நான் அங்கு வந்து சேர்ந்தேன். என்னைப் போலவே 5 பெண்கள் மற்றும் 2 ஆண்கள்  இருந்தனர் . குரு பெயர் திருமதி .ரியா என்று தன்னை அறிமுகப்படுத்திக் கொண்டார். அவருக்கு  சுமார் 42 வயது இருக்கும். அவர்  சிவப்பு நிற புடவை மற்றும் அதற்கு ஏற்ற ரவிக்கை அணிந்திருந்தாள். அவள் கைகளில் வளையல்கள் மற்றும் கால் மோதிரம் போன்ற ஆபரணங்களை அணிந்திருந்தாள். அவளது காதுகள் ஒவ்வொன்றிலும் 2 காதணிகளால் அலங்கரிக்கப்பட்டு, மூக்கில் நன்கு பளபளக்கும் மூக்குத்தி  இருந்தது.

குரு எங்களை பார்த்து  "இன்று முதல் நாள் என்பதால் நான் பரதநாட்டியம் பற்றி விளக்குகிறேன், பிறகு குரு நமஸ்காரம் சொல்லி தருகிறேன் ," என்று  கூறினார். "பரதநாட்டியம்" (தமிழகத்தில் ஒரு பாரம்பரிய நடனம்) கற்றுக் கொள்ள உள்ளோம், இது பெண்கள் மற்றும் சிறுவர்களால் ஆடப்படுகிறது. அவர்  என்னை மற்ற மாணவர்களுக்கு அறிமுகப்படுத்தினாள், பிறகு அவருடைய குரு  நடனக் கலைஞர்களின் சில படங்களைக் காட்டினாள், சில கை முத்திரைகளைக் காட்டினாள், அவர் வகுப்பை முடித்தார் , அடுத்த நாள் மாலை 5 மணிக்கு வரச் சொன்னாள்.

Deepika...part - 5

 That day night before going to sleep and i remember that what Riya mam said , I did not feel like doing that but my passion and my intrest also increased about dancing. finllay I decided to do as what Riya mam said tomorrow and i dont have any other way also. Next day i went to dance class and mam asked to follow her. i went behind her, she asked me to sit the chair and Again She opened it and I realized that it was mascara (kajal). I resisted a bit but she forcefully rimmed both my eyes with mascara.She used eyebrow pencils and curved my eyebrow shape like dancers.

She completed with a black bindi in the center of my eyebrows. She opened another drawer and took a pair of clip-on jhumkas. I felt my ears heavy when she clipped it to my ears. Then She told me that I can go to the practicing hall now. The other girls were already there.The girls just laughed seeing me and teasing me. I couldn’t look at anyone’s face. Mam ordered me to be in front. I understood that it is to make sure that no other girls see my projection. That day she told us about her plan. riya mam told us sit on the ground and she explained her program plan. 

she told me " you are new so you should act like lord Krishna and other girls will dance around you .I will teach you to less dance steps, but for girls will be more steps so practice accordingly . We also said yes and i became very happy. mam taught me basic steps and I felt much easier to dance. The class was over by 6:30 pm and I went inside the room to change dress and remove the eyebrows. I removed everything in a hurry and Riya helped me in removing earrings . I packed up everything and left. Next day My earrings fell down while practicing . while leaving home Riya mam called me and said "You have to pierce your ears. I was scared and again I said everyone at school would make fun of me but for that Riya told everyone who learns Bharatanatyam to have their ears pierced." now i dont have any option and i have to do it. mam called and informed to my mom about this.

when i reached my home and my mom is waiting for me. I said wait mom and i will get fresh up. we started from my home. It took 15 minutes to go to near by jewellary shop. We went inside the shop. he asked us sit and he asked us ,who is going pirece and my mom showed me. he asked mom “have you bought the earring? Which side you want to pierce? ” I tried to explain but my mom over toned saying “No, sir haven’t bought, but want to pierce both ears”. I said no to both of them and tried to get away to the front door. Mom told me that it was as instructed by Riya mam and if I don’t obey she wont allow me inside dance class again. Mom knows my addiction to dance class.

he told that he have studs with him and he selling that too and if u want puechase here mam. mom aslo said ok. then he cleaned my ear lobes with ethanol cotton swabs. mom was looking at a pair and i looking small studs. he took a long piercing pin and pushed through my left ear lobe.

I felt pain when stud was inserted and screwed I couldn’t hold longer and I just tried to get away but my mom holded me back in seat and he pierced my right ear and stud was fixed. he told me not to remove the piercing for a atleast two weeks. My eyes were watery and I nodded. My brother was at home when we reached home and he started to tease me. we started to fight and i kept hitting but he is not hitting me back and my mom is watching us with smile.

Deepika ...part-4

 

The next day, I left school immediately after the class. I reached dance class by 4:45 pm. This time there was no one in the dance hall except for Riya mam. She asked me what made me to learn bharathanatiyam. I told that it’s my parents will. She said “It’s good, but soon it will be your will!”. She told me you cannot practice natiyam in trouser ant shirt. She told me to wear the recommended dress for practicing natiyam. She told “Today, its ok and tomorrow u need to buy new pyjamas and pant. i said ok..

next we purched dance dress and i came with class. When I reached dance hall, the other students were there. They giggled seeing me in such dress and i am looking different. They didn’t asked me about dress since the strict teacher was with us. She started the class by teaching about the importance of steps .The class was over by 6 pm. almost one month over and continioulsy i am going to class and another he stoped to come dance class. my behavier is changed little bit . Now i am studying in 11 th staandard and its  co-ed school. I did not look much of a boy. Many teachers and boys are telling me that " your beahaving girl beacuse i wil not speak with anyone and even i feel shy for everything.so assumed I was a girl. some people make me fun of me so that time my brother will come and recuse me. My little brother is my bodygaurd. some time my teachers used  to make fun but i will not care about anything. one day i went to class but know one is there. then i searched otherside guru and students are cleaning the garden. riya mam asked me to help her. After that she asked us to sit and told us 'Next week my friends and  my guru's coming here so i was having some idea and i planning to conduct one program infront them. You all need to practice well and perfrom infront of them and who all are performing well and mibt be they will get chance to perform in stages and they will help you. Everyone became very happy and screamed .  

I am the only boy in the natyam academy. Before asking me , I started to leave as soon as it was completed but Riya mam holded me by hand and said that I’m not completed. she took me in to her room and showed

some male dancers photos and asking me to look the photos.  i said all are looking good mam , shall i leave mam. she said wait.  I asked her what else is to be done and she spoke nothing but opened a box and took something. She opened it and I realized that it was mascara (kajal). I resisted a bit but she forcefully rimmed both my eyes with mascara.She used eyebrow pencils and curved my eyebrow shape like dancers. She completed with a black bindi in the center of my eyebrows. She opened another drawer and took a pair of clip-on jhumkas. I felt my ears heavy when she clipped it to my ears. she asked me to look mirror, while seeing me i am looking different again she told me that tomorrow onwards you need to practice like this, i dont know what to say and without saying anything i came to home. before coming home i have washed my face and removed my bindi.

Deepika...part-3

 I was sitting in my room when mom came into the room. I looked at my mother and asked her " why mom ..u asking me to learn Bharatanatyam and its female dance and why should i learn . Mom said with a smile that it is not only for women , whoever having intrest they can learn and its arts and passion for some people ,

leave it others Your father wanted to learn Bharatanatyam but his father did not agree and that is why he joined the army. But your father learned natiyam without his father's knowledge that he could not continue after marriage .Deepak you know how to dance and u r learned also thats why i have chossed bharathanatyam and just tell me deepak ' do you want to learn the same thing over and over again? ' and she asked me decide and she left. i was thinking about it 'Anyway just a few days right so I thought I would learn and i will full fil my mom’s desire also...nextday mornig i said ok to mom and i told her  I cannot go as I didn’t knew classical dance. mom said dont worry about that & i will arrange it. She spoke with that mamand Within a day , my mom arranged a classical dance teacher at a nearby school place. The teacher was an old friend of my mom's friend. I knew that I have to manage school and dance class together.  my told me that " My father very talent person and i think u r aslo same . my mom requests me ' dont be silent and shy ,please be bold and confident and i want to see old my son. mom take me into academy at bharathanatyam. My father himself was a dancer in that tradition and encouraged me to pursue it. we went inside the guru room and We presented ourselves before the guru carrying in our outstretched arms a traditional plate full of offerings. After listening to my mother’s request she smiled at me kindly and asked me my name, I told her that my name was Deepak. 

I went to the class next day knowing nothing about the class. As my mom told, I reached there by 5 pm. Like me there were 7 other beginners with a difference that 5 were girls and 2 are boys.

The teacher inoduced herself as Mrs.Riya. My mouth opened wide wen I saw her, she was about 42 years old with good looking. She was wearing a red sari with golden borders and matching blouse. She had worn ornaments like bangles and toe-ring. Her ears were adorned by 4 earrings in each and had a well placed nose-stud shining on her nose. I tried hard and closed my mouth. She said that " today first day i will explain about bharathanatyam and i will teach guru namaskaram,. Riya mam explained that we are about to learn “Bharathanattiyam” (a classical dance in Tamilnadu) and which is performed by girls and boys. I felt littile free. She introduced me to other students . She showed some pics of her guru's dancers and showed some hand mudras. She then dismissed the class and told us to come an 5 Pm next day.

Deepika...part - 2

 Dad went to the army.  Mom, me and my brother and we would be home. My brother and I are very naughty boys, so often we even fight with neibhour guys. Mom would not hit us but scold us no matter what we did. If there was a fight between us I would beat my brother. He would cry and tell my mother. we are studying in military school. We are happly enjoying our school life. I would be pretty active when I was in school. even we joined a karate class.I did not study well, but my brother is intellence and hi is good in study. Everything was going well. I finished tenth grade. After finishied school summer time , Our dad also came home for summer vacation. Dad taught us to ride a bike. One day i got used to riding a bike alone,while practicing driving alone i fell down and i got hurt my head. parents admitted me to the hospital,still i am in unconsious state. After this incident i cant speak as loud and loud as before and it gives me a headache when I talk like that. So my habits changed. After that I was quite and speak less, but my mom fearing of seeing this and I could not change like that no matter how much he talked to me to change me like before. so my mom did not like me being like this so again she sent me back to karate class. A few days went well.One day while fighting in class a guy unknowingly hit me on the head, I had a seizure and fell down like that.They took me back to the hospital. The doctor told us that he had nothing to do with the nerve in his lower my head and i fell down then my brother came & gave tablet after some time i came to normal state. i was stopped to go karete class.

I just loved being alone, always sitting quietly in solitude. I stopped talking to peoples even mom and dad. I was always sitting there thinking of something. My mother saw this and came to asked me ' Always why you are sitting alone and do not want to talk to us. I looked at her and said not like that mom, I just like to be alone. Mom looked at me and told me 'do you remember what the doctor had said. I said yes mom . Then she told me I was going to take you to a one place on tomorrow, and I said I'm coming too. The next morning my mother and me went there. I acme to know thats music academy. my mom spoke with the person about singing class. but i dont like to learn singing and i told her. then mom looked at me and said ' if u dont like singing , then learn dance.i said no ., i cant so please we will go home. mom I looked at me and she angrily and said let's go home, then we both came home.

தீபிகா .... பகுதி -2

 அப்பா ராணுவத்திற்கு சென்று விடுவார்,  வீட்டில் அம்மா , நான் மற்றும் என் தம்பி மூவர் தான் இருப்போம். நானும் என் தம்பியும் சேட்டைகள் செய்யும் வாலு பசங்க, அதனால் அடிக்கடி நாங்கள் பக்கத்து வீட்டு பசங்க கூட சண்டை போடுவோம். நாங்கள் என்ன செய்தாலும் அம்மா எங்களை அடிக்க மாட்டார் ஆனால் திட்டுவார். எங்களுக்குள் சண்டை வந்தால்  நான் என் தம்பியை அடித்து விடுவேன். அவன் அழுது கொண்டே அம்மாவிடம் சொல்லுவான். எங்களை ராணுவ பள்ளியில் சேர்த்து விட்டனர். நாங்களும்  சந்தோஷமாக பள்ளிக்கு சென்று வந்தோம். நான் பள்ளியில் படிக்கும் போது நல்ல சுறு சுறுப்பாக இருப்பேன். அப்பா எங்களை காரதே வகுப்புக்கும் அனுப்பினார். எனக்கு படிப்பு அவ்வளவாக வரவில்லை, ஆனால் என் தம்பி நன்றாக படிப்பான். எல்லாம் நன்றாக சென்று கொண்டிருந்தது. நான்  பத்தாம் வகுப்பு முடித்து விட்டேன். கோடை கால விடுமுறையில் எங்கள் அப்பாவும் வீட்டிற்கு வந்தார்.  அந்த வருடம் அப்பா எங்களுக்கு பைக் ஓட்ட கற்று கொடுத்தார். ஒருநாள் நாங்கள் தனியாக பைக் எடுத்து கொண்டு ஓட்ட பழகினோம். அப்படித்தான் தனியாக ஓட்டும் பழகும் போது பைக்கில் இருந்து கீழே விழுந்து விட்டேன். என் தலையில் அடிப்பட்டது. மருத்துவ மனையில் சேர்த்தனர், எனக்கு என்ன ஆனது என்று கூட தெரியவில்லை பிறகு வீட்டிற்க்கு அழைத்து வந்து விட்டனர். ஆனால் எனக்குள் ஒரு சிறிய மாற்றம் முன்பு போல அதிகமாகவும், சத்தமாகவும் பேச முடியவில்லை அப்படி பேசினால் தலை வலிக்கிறது. அதனால் என்னுடைய பழக்கங்கள் மாறின . அதன் பிறகு நான் அமைதியாக இருந்தேன், ஆனால் இதை பார்த்த என் கொஞ்சம் பயம் வந்து விட்டது, என்னை முன்பு போல் மாற்ற என்னிடம் எவ்வளவோ பேசியும் என்னால் அப்படி மாற முடியவில்லை. எனக்கு இப்படி இருப்பது பிடிக்கவில்லை அதனால் அம்மா என்னை மறுபடியும் கராத்தே வகுப்புக்கு அனுப்பினார்கள். கொஞ்ச நாட்கள் நன்றாக சென்றன.ஒருநாள் வகுப்பில் சண்டை பயிற்சி செய்யும் போது ஒரு பையன் தெரியாமல் தலையில் அடித்து விட்டான் , எனக்கு வலிப்பு வந்து  அப்படியே கீழே விழுந்து விட்டேன் .திரும்பவும் என்னை மருத்துவ மனைக்கு அழைத்து சென்றனர். மருத்துவர் எங்களிடம் ஒன்றுமில்லை இவனுக்கு அடிப்பட்டத்தில் நரம்பு கொஞ்சம் பாதித்து இருக்கு , இப்போது மாத்திரைகள் கொடுக்கிறேன் சரியாகும்   வரை இங்கு வந்து சிகிச்சை மேற்கொள்ள வேண்டும் , இவன் அமைதியாக தான் இருப்பான் அப்படிஇருந்தால் இன்னும் ஆபத்து அதனால் இவனை அமைதியாக இருக்காமல் பார்த்து கொள்ளுங்கள் என்று டாக்டர் அம்மாவிடம் சொன்னார். 

இரண்டு வாரங்கள் ஓடியது , எனக்கு தனிமையில் இருக்க தான் பிடித்தது, எப்போதும் தனிமையில் அமைதியாக உட்கார்ந்து கொண்டிருப்பேன். நான் தப்பியிடமும், அம்மாவிடமும் , அப்பாவிடமும் பேசுவதை குறைத்து விட்டேன். நான் எப்போதும் எதையோ யோசித்து கொண்டு உட்கார்ந்து கொண்டிருப்பேன் இதை பார்த்த அம்மா என்னிடம் வந்து இப்போது என்னாச்சு னு நீ தனிமையில் இருக்கிறாய் ஏன் எங்களிடம் பேச விருப்பம் இல்லையா என்று கேட்டார். நான் அவரை பார்த்து அப்படி இல்லம்மா , எனக்கு தனிமையில் இருக்க தான் பிடித்திருக்கிறது என்றேன். அம்மா என்னை பார்த்து டாக்டர் என்ன சொன்னார் நியாபகம் இருக்கிறதா என்று கேட்டார். நான் நியாபகம் இருக்கு என்றேன். அம்மா என்னிடம் நாளை உன்னை ஒரு இடத்திற்கு அழைத்து செல்ல போகிறேன் என்றார், நாணும் வருகிறேன் என்றேன். மறுநாள் காலை அம்மா அழைத்து கொண்டு சென்றார். போனபிறகு தான் தெரிந்தது அது பாட்டு சொல்லி இடம் , நான் அம்மாவை பார்த்து வேண்டாம் என்றேன், பிறகு  அம்மா  என்னை பார்த்து பாட்டு கற்று கொள்ள விருப்பம் இல்லை என்றால் நாட்டியம் கற்று கொள் என்றார். நான் அம்மாவை கோபமாக பார்த்து வீட்டிற்க்கு போகலாம் என்றேன், பிறகு நாங்கள் இருவரும் வீட்டிற்கு வந்தோம்.

Deepika ... Part -1

                                                       Deepika Introduction

Ours is a small family and we are staying in delhi.  My dad( Vijay) army man.  Mom (rohini) was working as private school  teacher. Myself (Deepak ) heroin of this story. My little brother ( Sujay )was one of the hero. I am not an educated one. our family little wealth too. So there is no need to go for job.Now i am staying in  home and i am not going for job. i was very fair skin( like my mom) complexion about 5.5’ height and slightly built with 52 kgs. I had no facial hair or body hairs.  now My brother also joined in army.  i was like built and moderate height. I am very fair and got below shoulder length silky hair.

      Now i am in relationship . From childhood onwards we got good bond. my little brother bodyguard for me . he will fight for everything. But I am the one to bully by others. i was just quiet and reserved and even shy. He is quick observer and quick learner . He taught me to ride cycle and two- wheelers but still now i will scared to drive. i just got few friends .  He always cared me very much. Intensely he is very sweet to me. But he will always bully me like beating, pulling my hair, pouring water to me it was great to be with him. Once we fought fiercely he beat me in back shoulder which I could not bear and cried lot but anything between us I won’t take that to our parents this is which he became one of my best friend. From  that he was very soft with me. Even I bully him he will just say some movie dialogues to get lost and I won’t bear the pain. Of course it was true he is in his teens and physically stronger than me. But to our sweet part we will not hide anything b/w us .  some time i used cries on his shoulder to any problem.  Now getting to the point how I got the idea to cross-dress to myself. i wil tell you in next part.

தீபிகா... பாகம் --1

                                                            தீபிகா அறிமுகம் 

எங்களுடையது சிறிய குடும்பம், நாங்கள் டெல்லியில் இருக்கிறோம். என் அப்பா (விஜய்) ராணுவ வீரர். அம்மா (ரோகிணி) தனியார் பள்ளி ஆசிரியையாக பணியாற்றி வந்தார். இந்த கதையின் ஹீரோயின் நான்தான்  (தீபக்). என்னுடைய  தம்பி (சுஜய்) ஒரு ஹீரோ. நான் என்னுடைய  கல்லூரி படிப்பை முடிக்கவில்லை . நங்கள் கொஞ்சம் வசதியானவர்கள் , அதனால் நான் வேலைக்கு செல்ல வேண்டிய அவசியம் இல்லை.இப்போது வீட்டில் தான் இருக்கிறேன். நான் 5.5' உயரம் மற்றும் 52 கிலோ எடை சற்று ஒல்லியாக இருப்பேன் . எனக்கு முகத்திலும் மற்றும் உடம்பிலும்  அவ்வளவு முடிகள் இல்லை . எனக்கு என்னுடைய தோல் பட்டை வரை முடி இருக்கும் . நான் என்னுடைய காதை குத்தி கொண்டேன் .நான் என் அம்மாவை போல சற்று மாநிறமாக இருப்பேன். நான் இப்போது அமைதியாகவும் எதற்கு எடுத்தாலும் வெட்க படுவென் . அனால் நான் சிறு வயதில் ரொம்ப சுட்டி , வாலு பையன் . நான் இப்போது ஒரு பெண்ணை காதலித்து  கொண்டிருக்கிறேன் , அவளை தான் விரைவில் திருமணம் செய்ய போகிறேன் .

இப்போது என் தம்பியும்  ராணுவத்தில் வேலை செய்கிறான் . சின்ன வயசுல இருந்தே எங்களுக்குள்  உறவு நன்றாக இருக்குறது . எனக்கு   என்  தம்பி  தான்  பார்த்து கொள்கிறான்  . ஏனன்றால் மற்றவர்கள்  என்னை கிண்டல்  பண்ணுவார்கள் . என் தம்பி என்னை விட திறமைசாலி  எதையும் அவன் விரைவாகக் கற்றுக்கொள்வான் . அவன் தான்  எனக்கு சைக்கிள் மற்றும் இரு சக்கர வாகனம் ஓட்ட கற்றுக் கொடுத்தார், ஆனால் இப்போதும் நான் ஓட்ட பயப்படுவேன்.அவன்  எப்போதும் என் மீது மிகுந்த அக்கறை காட்டுவான் . அவன் தான்  எனக்கு மிகவும் நெருக்கமானவன் . ஆனால் என்னை அடிப்பது, முடியை இழுப்பது, தண்ணீர் ஊற்றுவது என எப்போதும் என்னை டார்ச்சர் பண்ணுவான் . பள்ளியில் படிக்கும் பொது ஒருநாள் நாங்கள் கடுமையாகச் சண்டைபோட்டோம் , அவன்  என்னைத் அடிக்க தாங்க முடியாமல்  அழுதுவிட்டேன் , ஆனால் எங்களுக்கிடையில் நடக்கும்  எதையும்  எங்கள் பெற்றோரிடம் எடுத்துச் செல்ல மாட்டோம் ,  அன்றிலிருந்து அவன்  என்னுடன் சண்டை போடுவது இல்லை . நான் அவனை க் கொடுமைப்படுத்தினாலும் அவன் என்னை பார்த்து  நான் அடித்தால் தாங்க மாட்டாய் ஓடிவிடு என்று சொல்வான் . என்னை விட உடல் ரீதியாக வலிமையானவர் என்பது உண்மைதான். நாங்கள் எங்களுக்குள்  எதையும் மறைக்க மாட்டோம்.  எனக்கு 

 எப்படி  பெண்கள் ஆடை மீது ஆர்வம் வந்தது என்பதை  பற்றி அடுத்த பாகத்தில் சொல்கிறேன்.

Deepika ...New story coming soon

                              

                               DEEPIKA

Trisha ...End part

                                                        Divya & Trisha Marriage

After twodays we went to Trisha home and they welcomed us inside. my spoked about my marrisge and aunty also happily agreed and finally my family and her family agree for marriage.In marriage Trisha wearing bueatiful silk saree and blouse and his hand is full of bangles and bindi earrings jewelers and full bridal makeup and hairstyle,

all nails are painted and my mother put me necklaces and bangles coming from her mother and grandmother . And i am is wearing withe shrit and dothi and he is in in marron withe coloured saree and she got so shy to sit beside me, he  bent his head and sitting in shyness i tied mangalsutra around his neck and put Sindoor and he bent down teach my feet and ask for blessings i bless him in her confident voice and he cried  due to happiness and this is my happiest day in my life

she carries me until we reach car and we went to  my home put aratti and mom told him to put right leg to our house, he came inside and put light in front of God and he again take blessings from my parents my in-laws and from his lady husband i am happy and proud for  myself for blessings him in front of all .

Night i ready and sitting in the bed, Trisha blushing and got shy and came inside at first night by wearing new silk saree and blouse and wearing all jewelry and bangles and carry a milk for me. he give me milk and sit on floor and teaching me feet and ask him to bless , then i put hands his shoulder and blessings him to have more proud daughters like me, he got shy then i hold him in my strong harms and push him in to bed and started to kiss him. i told home behave like wife, so only response to me then i remove his saree and blouse and started to enjoy him holding his long hair and I told her i am the owner of you. he close his eyes due to shyness

then i removed his hand and kiss him to lip ,he responded to my kiss, iam  active and he is passive,  he is only respond to my move i put traps on his navel and earring in between kissing hips  and navel. i  start enjoying him and he responding to my commend and sounding like girl he is really girl on bed and I am real man.Morning trisha woke up and get ready in Saree and put rongoli and came with bed coffee. I push him towards me and started to kiss him and he tried to get out but I am strong in front of him and i again enjoy  and we went to bath and took bath and get ready in other saree and do Pooja of God after that she came with Pooja plate  and she put tilak on forehead.  i  put Sindoor to him I took flowers put it in his long hair. After some time we went to Trisha home .

I am feeling I am lucky guy to get lovable and caring husband and rest of the life i am housewife of my lovable person and in life gets to each other a lot and new type of love story begins....

Trisha ..part-9

                                                                Surprisse

i was crying in my room and that night Kaviya and trisha were talking.Trisha saw me while i was cryig and when he came inside i wiped my eyes and lay down. he also slept and he woke up in the morning he hugged me and kissed on the cheek and said good morning.

Then he hugged me tightly. then he wake up went to my home and he spoke with my mom. mom went inside the room and she came with one plate. my mom give him one bueatiful saree and blouse  and she makes him ready in that after that she shows him some jewelers like earrings necklaces bangles she told it's given by her mother in-law and now she is giving to him . i cant understand anything. he started to  wear all that jewelers and makeup.my mom take him to infront of God and told him to light ,

he light the lamp mom put Kumkum to his head and told him she consider him as her daughter in-law and tell him to marry me and be my housewife, his started crying with happiness and agreed. even i started to cry with happiness. then my mom told him and she will come speak with his mom.

He came towards me and he slapped me , he asked me " Will you marry me Divya " .

I am crying with happiness then i said yes. we hugged each other. but still i am confusinon state. so i asked trisha suddenly how u r changed. he said "" yesterday night i saw u r crying , then i came to your room and after some time i picked up your mobile and password would be my name only and i got acces and just i saw the gallery and its full of my photos. then I opened your facebook and the only shock to me was that your are the one who spoke to me by the name of Vicky and then I checked contact list, who Kaviya was.Kaviya was known to be your friend. i felt very bad and  I was calling you by sister and i dont know how much hurts you and i spoke with kaviya regarding this and i break up with her"". then i said dont worry now u r mine so this time i will match for how much i got hurts..

Trisha ...part-8

                                                      Trisha Sister Marriage

All the three of girls wore saree and  we were going to temple. Shreya wore a green saree, aunty wore ash coloured saree and Trisha wore a yellow saree. Already i am wore white shirt and white dhoti. i  said " You both sisters are really beautiful. Aunty said i am very lucky to have you as my daughters".

Trisha and my sister blushed. Then all of us entered the car and went to temple. Many men were looking at us. But now i need  protect us three girls. Then we did pooja. After pooja, we sat there some time, took selfies. i  said " Trisha have a beautiful curve at  waiste. shreya also said if he had breasts, then he would be the perfect woman. We came back to our home . Then all are thanking me for explanation. Trisha came and hugged me tightly and said thank you everything sister and because of you now living as a female. i said " its ok Trisha and congats dear " , then i came back to my home.

Almost 2 months over, one day Trisha came to my home with good news.Shreya is getting married and she gave invitation and I become too happy. Trisha requested me to shreya's bridesmaid and ask me to dress in saree, and i told him " i dont like to wear saree " sorry trisha. i suggested him to be a bridesmaid for your sister marrige and he said yes ,i am one of the bridesmaid. the day beffore marrige shreya and Trisha all went to bueaty parlour and get our eyebrow done facial and Medicure and pedicure done, in her Mehandi program

i also become girl and dressed in Salwar and get my hand with Mehandi, all girls take lots of selfies and enjoyed, finally groom side people come,

Trisha did arathi to groom, but groom one of friend is looking at trisha, I felt shameful because boy is attracted many boys through his beauty but no one is seeing me , in marriage trisha busy and she is doing all women rituals but groom friend is taking the photos of trisha, shreya start teasing trisha but i don't like that, finally when marriage is over we all girls crying while sending shreya, trisha hug her and cried a lot because she is  sister over a best friend over, shreya told trisha her friend likes you , if you agree we both can become bahu of same family , trisha told " I like to dress up as a girl and treat as a girl but don't like to marry with a guy I like muscular and strong girls and be her wife, then Shreya laughed and told actually he is not boy and she is my friend kaviyaa and she is a strong girl , trisha got shocked and surprised and kaviya remove her fake moustache and told her and I love you Trisha , he said yes..i cant see this and all so  i came to my room.

Trisha ..part -7

                                             Family Accepting Trisha

Shreya opend the door and Trisha standing behind me and i asked her show her face. Trish was looking down and looking in fear.shreya was shocked seeing him as a woman. she called her mom & both are shell shocked. Both are confused and asking me why trish dressing as a girl.

Again shreya asked me  " Divya, what the hell is this. Why he is  dressed like a woman. Tell me ."

I said " He just like dressing up as a woman. he kept this as a secret with him all these days".

Shreya said " Aren't you ashamed of saying that. Divya , you dont have any problem because he is my brother and he is  wearing women's dresses".

I said "No Shreya. Why you are feeling ashamed. There is nothing wrong in this. If he is happy, you wil be happy. C'mon shreya be matured".

shreya said "I can't accept this in my family". Then she came slapped his two cheeks and his mom went without speaking anything.

I said  "  There is nothing wrong in a man willing to wear a woman's dresses. If you really want your brother to be happy, let him be the woman he wants to be. I hope you understand this and say sorry to your brother who will be your sister from now on".

I said to Trish "Don't worry Trisha . Mom & your sister will understand you and they will accept you as Trisha. they needs some time and now you go and speak to your mom and she will understand you. 

He said " Thanks Divya sister for helping me".

He went to his mom room and both are sitting in bedrrom  and he hold aunty leg and he said "mom can I also dress like you both, can you consider me also one among you please, they both get shock and can't tell anything, the salient kills more, he told to mother that, 'i want to be your younger daughter and shreya's littile sister and it happy for me mom." my happiness is living like girl and wearing sarees like you and you are the role modal fro me mom" . Again he asked ' mom is begin a girl is wrong? or whether its making shame on me mom being girl' .

finally his mother told no my boy, but you are not born as girl right, he told yes, I not bron as girl but girl bron in my soul, again he said 'i want to beacme like you mom and and I am proud to be feminine like you, his mother hugs him and both started to cry, then his mother and sister welcomed in to womanhood he feel so happy and feminine. i feel happy for him.Then shreya took his head her hands and started kissing his cheeks where she slapped. he said "If I knew you would do this I would have got beaten in many other places too".We both laughed. they are hugged each other.

Aunty  take him to god's room and put one saree and blouse and jewellery and bangles in one plate and put his hands on that plate and told him accept himself as a girl infornt of God and told him to wear all this,.

Trisha ..part -6

                                     Jealousy Moment & Women's day special

 while seeing this i am getting jealosy and getting very angry on kaviya.

i told her to act like vicky but she crossing her limit and thats makes me very angry. kaviya said " Today is her first date and that to in guys dress with a guy in girl dress he also told the same, and that evening is amazing for them but for me its hell. after 2 hours hours thay left the mall. but i cant able to tell him " i am Vicky and your FB friend". i called kaviya and i asked about the incident. kaviya said " she s in love with Trish and she proposed him and he also agreed" and she asked me "

pls dont disturb Divya and dont try to talk to Trish and now he is mine " and sh cut the cal.  again i sent msg in FB but no reply from him. i got his mobile number and i tried to explain the situation but he will belive me or not i dont know. Trish calling me as Sister. i dont know what to do and i getting mental depression. 

i want to help trish so i planned some thing and  it's a womens day and i asked him to our home and my mom ask him to come inside when he went inside he get shock to see me and i am wearing dothi and shirt and mom asked him " you both are made for each other and if your ok , can you marry my daughter divya " and he told that " Divya is like my sister so soory aunty " and i cried and i cant able to stop. i went to my room. my mom give him one bueatiful saree and blouse. he is confused and mom told him "dear i know about you so please dont worry ".

mom makes him ready in that after that she shows me some jewelers like earrings necklaces bangles she told it's given by her mother in-law and now she is giving to me this and I am wearing all that jewelers and makeup she take me to infront of mirror.The mom asked me to drop him in home. Untill reaching home we both are not speaked anything. 

Trisha ...part -5

                                                      Miss Princess Trisha

Trish decided to go as Trisha to get the bumper offer by mall,he is wearing saree and with minimal jewellary and he took his sister scooty and reached the mall they welcomed me by giving the pink roses and they welcomed mr. Prince by giving red roses, I saw him he is tall and bigger than me but I thought somewhere o saw this guy and the clothes I know it but not getting who is he then the manager side both will get the free dress which every you like and then

I will take to bueaty palor and I will get makeover like facial makeup and hairstyle and nail polish to my hand and legs and he will get all gents palor facility and we will date in the restaurant in that mall all are free I get excited.

They take me to clothes shop I just love seeing all the clothes and I am trying all type of dress from modern to traditional when I hold Sarees my shoulder it's make me feel so happy then I finally take one long skirt wear a super-cute dress in pastel shades, ladies in palor take of dress and put wax to body since I don't have lots of hair

I feel little pain in waxing then they did facial makeup put Kajol to my eyes and pink soft lipstick to my lips and flushed cheeks then they dress me in the dress I got, then they make my hairstyle with casually tousled hair then put small earrings and necklace and nail art work to my 20 nails and then finally Finish off the look with a cute bag and matching pumps. they show me to the mirror and I am feeling very Feminine happy and can't able to believe myself I am questioning is I am really a boy? Due to shyness my chicks become pink and all the ladies teasing me I am really like all the ladies they are so cute and helpful.

I went to restaurant there he welcomed me by giving the rouse and open the door like gentle man and make me sit in a chair and he sited I can't believe I am acting so feminine the dress I am wearing feels so sensitive on my body make me forget I am a boy and my long dream come true today. suddenly i received msg from Vicky " Hi Trisha how are you and how your feeling now , you have passed my test and i will come & meet you right now

". He became very happy . he was sitting in chair and Mr.prince gave red rose and he said " Hi Trisha you are most beautiful girl in the girl " like proposing way. he got shocked and started to cry and hugged him tightly. he got shocked " The boy infornt of him is nothing but Kaviya and  he is not boy he is she a girl and another surprise is she is his sister friend. then they both laugh eachother, he told her and he have dream to dress in girls clothes , Kaviya also told from childhood she is a tomboy and wish to wear boys clothes and she use this chance.

Trisha ..part -4

                                                                      Test for Trisha

One day i sent msg in FB that " Trisha i want to meet you and if u r intrested " and he replied " Hi vicky i will meet you and just tell me date time ". i got shocked and surprised " he is ready come wearing the  girls dress but i got fear ,

if he meets me directly and he will come know i am his siter friend and i dont know how he will react ". before meeting him and i want to check how brave he is ? so i made one plan. i sent msg " see trisha i want to test you if u passsed that test we will meet tomorrow evening " and he said " ok vicky.i am ready to take that test and tell me what to do me " , again i sent " dont worry trish u will come to know about this ". 

 Next day i arranged everything , i told him ' Trisha u will get call from unknown number & do whatever they says " and he said yes. after sometime he got call from a girl she is telling " hi Trisha , we have opend new clothes shop what is your size" and we will send to door deleivery. he got confused and tell wrong number and kept the phone after some time again he got call and one guy told me "Madam your blouse is ready please collect it today" again he got confused and thought why this guy's are crazy after some time again he got a call that form the mall manager, he told him "Miss Trisha mam we are happy to tell you your name is selected for miss Princess of the mall and you won our lucky drawer where you will get a bueatiful woman dress

which every you like next the some jewelers and you will get Makeup pradicare and Medicare and hairstyles with the biggest shop in our mall and you will get date with the Mr.Prince of the mall " and he kept the phone he got confused why everyone is calling him Trisha then he just sat on the bed and thinking and he check the phone and finally he gussed about my test.

Trisha ..part -3

                                                   Love begins b/w Divya & Trish

Me (Divya)  & Shreya both are college friends and she got engaged so one day i went to meet my friend shreya. i knocked her door and door was opend.I saw one bueatiful girl she is having perfect figure,

long thick hair, very girly soft hand, white face soft and sensitive lips, kajal in eyes and bueatiful halfsaree she is wearing, after seeing her I forgot world. she asked me whos  are you and what u want mam. i told her " my name is divya and i want to meet shreya and she is my friend . she told me " shreya sis and her mother went outside , her brother went to buy something to eat and i am his girlfriend ". Then i came back to my home. After two days i got call from shreya and she asked me to her home. i went to shreya home and she taking bath so i seeing her home and i went her brother trish room and laptop is open only and i seen some photos  then i came back to shreya room. sametime trish also came to home .Shreya and her mother got ready to go for shopping, i told shreya , ask your brother trish join with us and he will help us to carry the bags and she invited trish to come with us and he also joined with us.

we went to saree shop and we went to ladies section, shreya and aunty seeing sarees and Trish simply roaming there, suddenly one girl come to him and asked, how can I help you, he told her , nothing mam just seeing the colloction and he told searching for good clothes for my sister's marriege.  she asks him about size he told my sister is almost my size only she told ok and she takes him to modern dresses section, she opened so many dresses, salwars and holds against to him and told is it ok mam, can you try it once and check, he just shocked and two steps came back , she thought Trish is a girl and calling is as mam, he was explained but his face little bit confusion state and i dont know why? , then he came sat near his sister shreya. shreya asking him to chosse the colour and he started to look sarees. one more sales girl came and showing  the sarees.

sales girl put one saree on his shoulder and she asked him " mam now you check mirror and this colour is suits well mam...while seeing this shreya started to laugh and i cant able to stop ,he dont know what to do and he felt shame.. he went outside. while coming back to home shreya and me continiously laughing about that incident.after shopping we came back to home.  directly i went to my home and i have created FB account and i put name as boy name " Vicky" . Already Trish is having one fb account name as " Trisha" and i gave him friend request and he accepted.. we started to send msgs and shared about us. As my point of view he is girl and his pont i am boy. but still he dont know who i am.  almost three months passed we are getting very close and we sharing about our personal problems. i having feeling on him and i fell in love with Trisha (Trish) and i think he also love with me(Vicky). 

Trisha ..part 2

Trish Birthday & Born Fem inside him 

Today his sister shreya birthday,so he want to surprise his sister for her birthday. so he shaved moustache and beard completely. he tied my long hair with hairband and wear one t-shirt and pant, without hair his face glowing and he looks pretty and he is looking so cute and soft fairly.

he went to his sister room to give surprise and while seeing him , she shocked and smiled and he said her " its your birthday gift sister then she kissed his cheeks and hugged. she told him " you are looking more handsome in this look ", pls continiue like this bro. he said ok but i will try..and he asked shreya scooty key because he gave to service station..then she gave her scooty key. He started the scooty and going to buy gift for his sister. while going he stoped the Scotty near one jewellery shop and thought of buying a earrings and necklaces set to my sister for her birthday. he went inside the shop and a girl welcomed him and tell how can I help for you, he told " I am looking for earrings and necklaces set " , she takes him and started to showing all the design and he is in confusion which one to choose, seeing his face reaction confused, sales girl told let me help you and put one mirror infornt of him

and she come near him and started to putting earrings to his ears and when she pinned the earrings he get pain but somewhat managed but he is enjoying and didn't speak anything, she put earrings to his ears and then necklace and sales girl told it's look beautiful for you madam .when he heard a word madam in her mouth he thought she mistaken refer as a girl, so he told her it's for my sister not for me, then she told sharing clothes and jewelleries are common between sisters and again she told that " you and your sister will look pretty in this earrings see the mirror mam ", and show himself into a mirror, seeing himself in long hair and earrings on ears and necklaces,

he stunned and he forgot the world so much strange feeling, he thought so much feminine and wish to wear earrings always. Suddeny he came out from imagination ,finally he bought this earrings and necklaces set for sister. he went home and he gve earrings and necklaces set to his siter.From that day  onwards he started to feel feminine inside and his loving beard and moustache gone and daily he shaved completely and started to looking pretty feminine, he started to do hairstyles feminine, Girly feminine things is just born,  he started to look like macho man and playing sports but inside him that feminine girl also slightly growing, he feel the some time when ever he saw bueatiful girl his eyes goes to her dress and her hair and his heart telling him to wear that dress have long hair like her but again he told to it no he is a boy and started his boyish activity try to be macho naught but it's fake. Always his is waiting for correct time and if he is alone in house and he will do the dressing.

TRISHA ....part 1

 Hero Introduction

I proposed him to become my housewife and he agreed next screen is marriage hall while I am tieing mangalyasutra around his neck and he takes my blessings next screen is when he gets up we are in first night room where I am in dothi and he is wearing silk saree, I pulled him to bed and put bedsheets when we open the next screen is , I am father for his kids and he is mother for my kids, I am feeling proud because I become female father of baby I wish my baby should be like me and someone is shaking my shoulder and telling hey Divya getup.

Then I open my eyes the things until now I saw is dream, my mother is come to my room and tell me to get up because.

Mom: hey..divya getup it's already 5

Me : what it's still 5 why you distrib my sleep.

Mom: what you are girl you should get up at 5 take bath and put rongoli in front of the house and help me in kitchen and clean..

Me: what I hate doing this house hold work, I will go for jogging and excess.

I went to bathroom wash my face and took pant and shirt and wear that ready to go jogging.my mother come and started to scolding me and tell you are a girl you can't able to wear pants and you must always wear petticoat and skirt. I hate wearing that but my mother take me to bathroom and give a bath and forcefully make me wear half saree and teaching me house work without interest I am doing all.

Ours is a very orthodox family believe in woman is lower than man and she is for serving the man. But I hate that I love independent, I want to be in freedom and I wish to wear only men's clothes like dothi, pants and shirt etc I hate to wear saree, half saree chudidar etc but due to my mother forcefully I am wearing it. My mother braiding my hair and give me all jewelries like earrings, bangles etc and tell me to go to college by binding head and come home early I simply said ok and went outside I saw my father and I am told him I will go to college he said ok , I went outside of my area and feel like I come out of jail.

Heroin Introduction..

                                                               

He is name Trish, i have one elder sister and her name Shreya.I am studying in Arts college and shy type boy with little fashion, so I have long hair and always style it as bun, and Very fair and tin with no hair on my face people always mistaken me as girl.  he is having elder sister, my parents  give me all independence.i am just play  cricket and watch TV, i am very naught boy that always tease his sister and tat is increasing my love to her. I am very proud of myself and my manly nature, so I started to growing mustache and beard. According to my mother doing household work and cooking all is woman's job so she always telling to my sister to do all household work and she doing it, actually my sister is a Teacher and always wearing Saree to work and home also because of my mother restriction, she is a good sport girl but my mother restriction she simply sitting in home and doing cooking and household work, and my mother allow me to do anything no restriction. My sister always tell me to shave beard and i will look more handsome. i have pierced my both ears and i thought thats fashion.i will do every thing as my sister says and she is loving me and i am love her more and we have great bond between us.

Trisha New story coming soon...

 

                                   TRISHA